i'm up early this morning. my eyes are swollen and i'm exhausted.
but it's so worth it. what a historical,momentous event.
one of the most evil,repugnant,horrible men in history is dead.
he orchestrated something that changed my life, and everyone else's lives,forever.he brought our country FEAR. and sorrow. and he was full of ugly black hate.
there are no words for the kind of person he was.
on the other hand, this man...
there are simply no words that can adequately express the pride i have in this man.
there are no words to tell you how much i love my soldier.
just like there are no words to tell you how much i fear for him.
i cannot properly convey the way my heart feels about him.
the way my heart loves every service member in our great country.
they leave. for months, years at a time. they miss birthdays,anniversaries, holidays, weddings, funerals.
they miss seeing their children walk, talk, graduate.
they miss their wives, husbands. many marriages crumble b/c the army (the military) is a powerful mistress.
i had to work for a long time to accept that jimmy loves her. and sometimes i feel like i'm playing second fiddle.
she is his heart.
there are no words to say how grateful i am that men and women are willing to do what he does.
because i never could.
i'd be scared.horribly scared.
so grateful for all of our strong,courageous,steadfast troops.
but that's not all...there just aren't any words to tell you the enormity of the gratitude i feel.
there are no words in the english language to describe the anguish i feel for all of the lives lost.
for all of the families that have lost husbands,wives,mothers,fathers,children,siblings...lost a piece of their hearts.
i pray that this brings them some peace. i pray that they know how much they are loved. and lifted up by prayer. and how much i wish i could take some of the sorrow off of their soldiers.
because, after all, if you are a military spouse...this is what you live in fear of.
there are no words to say how that feels.
but today, since i can't quite make my fingers type the words that will perfectly put onto this screen the way i feel...i'll simply say this.
thank you. to j and every man and woman fighting for me. for my girls. for our future. thank you.
never have i been prouder. xo
